“Weeping is not the same thing as crying, It takes your whole body to weep, and when it`s over, you feel like you don`t have any bones left to hold you up.”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer
Like most people around the world I was mortified and heartbroken by the horrific events that occurred at Sandy Hook Elementary in the small, close-knit community of Newtown, Connecticut. As a mother of two children ages 6 and 8, the unimaginable tragedy struck even closer to my heart and soul and made me think in ways I didn’t want to. How on earth a young lost soul could do the most horrific thing imaginable is beyond any reasonable thinking. I have thought about it for a long time and still the pain and fear remain and the questions unanswered. Perhaps we will never know.
Over a month ago, the Global Team of 200, a group of exceptional women bloggers who I am honored to be a part of, decided to act upon this tragedy and ensure that these 27 victims of the Sandy Hook tragedy were not simply forgotten. Catching on to the “26 Random Act of Kindness” theme that started from lovely Ann Curry and went viral, we wanted to take it a step further as a group and write a post honoring each of the 27 (not 26 as there were 27 victims of this tragedy) people who lost their lives that day.
I felt uneasy writing something about a person I never knew. I also accepted that there was no way possible I could emotionally write about a child the same age as mine. Thus, perhaps I took the easier way out by selecting Mary Sherlach, age 56, the school pychologist.
Not true. I realized that there was no easy way to write this post.
When I pulled up the Time article honoring the victims lives, and saw the beauty and promise in their smiling faces, it became all too real again. The raw pain, shock, horror, rage and anger remain within me and I still find it hard to accept and forgive. My heart goes out to all the families who lost the most precious things in their lives: Their glowing rays of light, hope and promise. Their love. Their children. My heart also goes out to the families who lost the brave adults who fought to protect the children they taught and cared for at the school.
Tragedies like these burn at the soul and make us wonder about the morality and mindset of the human spirit.
I look at this picture of Mary below and the short description documenting the last 56 years of her life. I feel saddened that she didn’t have time to see her grandchildren grow and live to the grow old with her husband. Her life along with 26 others were stolen by one lost soul. How do we forgive? How do we forget? Is it ever possible? I do not know.
Mary, I sincerely wish I could do you justice in this post. I never knew you, I never will, but you will not be forgotten and our hearts go out to your family in hope for a better day.
To read more about the victims of the Newton tragedy and their lives that were cut way too short, click here.
To read the most recent post on 27 Acts of Kindness and see a list of all the posts our team have written this month, click here.