“Our power lies in our small daily choices, one after another, to create eternal ripples of a life well lived.” -Mollie Marti
I am in a reflective mood today as yet another school year draws to a close. As a mother, I feel the ebb and flow of the time through the lives of my growing children. Each milestone my children reach, strike my innermost emotional being. Today, after six years my son took his last step inside the classroom at his elementary school. I have fought back emotions all day ranging from uttermost pride and joy to a little bit of sadness as it felt like these past six years have gone by with the blink of an eye. Not only has my son and daughter changed, so have I.
Once I became a mother, my life as I had known it for almost 33 years was forever changed. I admit that I wasn’t always sure I wanted to be a parent. I was perfectly happy enjoying life with my husband and traveling as much as we could afford. I wanted to make something out of myself and build a career. I felt the pressure of achieving the American Dream.
Yet, something traumatic happened while I was thousands and thousands of miles away on a trip. I lost someone close. A child within our extended family. And I realized that life was short. I also realized that there was something priceless that nothing could ever buy or give me. A family. I am so incredibly close to my family and the thought of not having that relationship with children of my own troubled me. So the decision was made. Within a month I was pregnant with my first child and two years and four days after his brith, I delivered my daughter. Nothing will ever give me such immense joy, fulfillment and love. Nothing. I am so incredibly grateful to have them as my children and to have taken on the difficult role of raising caring, loving, children who aspire to make the world a better place.
Sometimes I admit that I worry that I’m not doing enough with my work and I feel terrible that there is so much more I can do to help out. But then I realize that my children are truly only here with me for a short while and I must spend as much time cultivating and loving them as possible. Before I know it, they will be off to their own lives and it will be my husband and I alone once again. So the time is now to embrace being with them.
As another year ends, I look forward to the future. To the day when I can show them the world and bring them along. We have done a lot of traveling around the US but haven’t been much else yet with them. I can hardly wait to open their eyes to something larger, something grander, and something magnificent.
It is my deepest hope that they continue in my footsteps, to want to see and explore the world and make a difference. As the world grows more and more complicated, with technology taking over their young lives in ways that are unimaginable when I was a child, I have a deeper responsibility and commitment to ensuring they can step away. Ensuring they can get out and smell the fresh pure air, and see the world in all its beauty.
Yet for the next few months of our short summer, it is a time to play and enjoy the raw feeling of freedom. For that is what summer is all about. Finding your inner child and having fun. Before I know it, fall will be here and the routine of life will start once again. There is no better time than the present to embrace and enjoy the moment.