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Sunday thoughts of Peace

“There is a saying in Tibetan, ‘Tragedy should be utilized as a source of strength.’ No matter what sort of difficulties, how painful experience is, if we lose our hope, that’s our real disaster.” ― Dalai Lama XIV

My heart is bleeding and it cannot stop. As a loving mother of a six and eight-year-old, I still cannot get the darkness out of my head. I often wear my heart on my sleeve. I’m an emotional, thoughtful person who has a tendency to dwell on tragedy. My heart continues to bleed for these families who lost the most precious thing in the world: Their children.

I’m up at night trying to erase the memory from my head. I check in on my sleeping son and touch his still baby-soft skin. A tear gently swims down my face. I cannot imagine ever losing him. Then, I wander into my daughter’s lavender room. I look at her little hands, so precious and tender, and hold them gently in mine. She is a treasure. All children are a priceless gift.

Yes, this happens all over the world in many different forms. I write about it all the time in my blog trying to raise awareness of the world’s ills and injustice. War, disease, natural disasters and violence. But it still strikes a chord in my heart so painful, and so burning, that I cannot forget.

So I’m looking for peace today. Peace from my ravaged mind at all the senseless, unending violence in the world. Peace that there will be a brighter day. I hope these images, some of my most treasured, will remind me of all the good in this world.

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“Weeping is not the same thing as crying, It takes your whole body to weep, and when it`s over, you feel like you don`t have any bones left to hold you up.” 
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy SummerIMG_1471 IMG_1455 IMG_2479 “We pass through this world but once. Few tragedies can be more extensive than the stunting of life, few injustices deeper than the denial of an opportunity to strive or even to hope, by a limit imposed from without, but falsely identified as lying within.” 
― Stephen Jay Gould, The Mismeasure of ManIMG_1369 IMG_1852 “When we love, we always strive to become better than we are. When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too.” 
― Paulo Coelho, The AlchemistP1000396 IMG_1981 “It is often in the darkest skies that we see the brightest stars.” ― Richard EvansIMG_1385 IMG_1634 IMG_1642 IMG_1647 IMG_2329 IMG_2332_Snapseed

32 comments

  1. Amiga, I am so sorry that your heart has shattered into so many pieces. It must be hard to have the tragedy on instant replay through television and newspapers and internet. The wounds don’t have time to heal, as the press continues to reopen them.
    Living ‘off the grid’ buffers me from the tragedies of the world. I cannot imagine what it must be like to try to heal without the help of solitude where one can get quiet with God and stay in that sweet space for as long as needed. After Katrina hit the Gulf Coast, several days passed before I saw live images on a restaurant’s television. After about thirty seconds of watching, I burst into a fit of weeping that I could not stop. It was an assault on my senses to see the devastation to the landscape that I knew so well. I vowed not to look at another televised image after that. One glimpse was enough, and of course emails followed with stories of “You won’t believe it, Lisa…”
    Katrina was a freak of nature, a monster of a storm; these killings were by a freak, a horrid monster of a tormented person. One can comprehend the first, but one can never understand why one would snap and shatter so many lives.
    I send you my love and empathy and hope that you can find your way out of your grief.

    • Oh thanks for your kind words Lisa. I know everyone has been so impacted by this one event. All the events hurt the heart. For some reason this one is even more so painful as it has been caused intentionally. My husband reminded me of all the past atrocities we have lived through. From the wars, to the Holocaust and genocide. THe world isn’t pretty. Sometimes it is hard to bare it all. Anyway, I’m feeling more calm now. It has been so nice to share feelings with our blogosphere support group so thank you. My son has been sick with the stomach flu since Friday so its been hard. But as we know, we should count our blessings in this world and do our best to make it a better place. 🙂

      • your husband sounds like a very grounded person, and yes, our species comes from a pretty tough history of violence. i think this might spark more attention to quality family time – parents being more active in their children’s lives. it’s hard for me to know since i’m so removed from that culture now.

        here in the farming area of ecuador, children roam the streets and ebb from one store to another where people gather and visit as they go from a to b to c to d and back to a. the children are so cute, they’ll enter the room and greet most everyone they see, even strangers. they might retrieve a banana from tia/aunt or they might have a message scribbled on a piece of paper or a shopping list.. and then they dart back out…. later i might see them elsewhere, still on their unhurried way where they are still – thankfully- untainted from violence.

        a high respect for others is stressed here, and it’s refreshing to see that most everyone is happy. many might be poor but they are happy.

        i hope that your son’s stomach problems are finished soon, and that no one else catches that bug!

        feliz navidad seems inappropriate this year, doesn’t it?

        z

      • I agree so much Lisa. Whenever I travel especially to third world places that don’t have as much material stuff as the west does, I’ve noticed that people despite their struggles with poverty do seem more genuine and happier. It really bothers me. I do have a nice community here so I feel fortunate but overall I miss that kind of humanly kindness from strangers. Oh well.
        My son is still sick and it is day 5 of the stomach flu. I feel completely drained these days with everything. But then again, I know it could be so much worse.
        I hope he is better soon as we leave for Virginia on Sunday for a week to see both sides of the family. Although it is stressful, I still think it will feel good to see everyone. 🙂

      • Thanks Lisa! 🙂 I’m sure I’ll have some posts here and there before I leave. I’ve had time to write since we’ve been isolated to the house!!!!

  2. Beautiful photos Nicole. As the Dalai Lama said, we must not lose our hope. I am finding that instead of watching the news now, I concentrate on scenes of beauty, either in the out of doors, or magazines or wherever I can to focus my mind on the good and beautiful that still exists. Sending virtual hugs to you.

    • Thanks so much Angeline! I’ve been stuck at home with a sick kid (Max has the stomach flu) so its been hard to get everything out of my head. You are right though about hope. We can’t give up or loose hope. It is up to people like us to make the world a better place.

  3. Susan

    A beautiful thought to remind us all of how we should love all those in our lives. I too have 2 precious young children and I share your feelings and emotions daily.

    • Yes indeed. Also even more so, look at what is happening in the world. Our violence is intense and everywhere and being exported too. The books, the movies, the games, etc. I know we’ve always had violence and tragedies (war, genocide and the Holocaust) but this feels like a whole new level and is very complicated. I think guns laws would make it harder but I know the crazy people would still find a way to get the guns illegally, just like they can get drugs. So sad, isn’t it. Not sure what the answer is but we can at least start with the gun laws and perhaps more regulation on movies….but violence sells.

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  5. Reblogged this on wendolynlea's Blog and commented:
    I, too, have small children. I have pulled them even closer, held them tighter, kissed them more since rhis past Friday. For those families whose children were murdered, I have wept. The sadness is crushing. I must believe light is greater than darkness. Where is our humanity? Where can sanctuary be found when no home, school, church, theater is safe? As a mother and as a citizen of the US my heart aches for those families and for this country.

  6. This is the absolute nightmare of any parent, a horrible tragedy. Be it in the USA, a young man suffering from a mental illness, seemingly not getting adequate treatment and then killing school children or in any warzone anywhere…innocents being killed is always is an absolute horror. What strikes me most is the difference in which the media approaches those tragedies. I believe the moment any warzone’s children’s background and fate would be reported the same way the victims of US mass shootings are, there wouldn’t be any more wars because there would be a huge public outcry at any try to even start one. Stop violence. Take responsibility. Listen to each other. Work for the good. Work against deception. Love.

  7. I needed to read this today after being sad for what happened in the past few days, “When we love, we always strive to become better than we are. When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too.” Beautiful images and words that comes from a generous heart. Wishing you and your family a blessed and happy Christmas.

    • Thanks. I’ve been so upset and distraught. My son has been sick too meaning I’ve been home, not sleeping and thinking more about what happened. My heart goes out to these families and I sincerely hope we all heal.

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